HMV autographs signing session at HMV London
It is so hard to express in words what I feel. Since Saturday night after the show I walk in circles and talk with myself. I review in my mind the show from all the angles possible and I try to understand how could it be...
Somehow the signing session from the March 3rd is still alive in my memory. I can see everything again as if I live into an everlasting dream.
Nothing is changed, emotions, the thrill of seeing again old and new X friends...the longing to stand in front of them, the men of X, again...
Years flew over us all, we grew up and wrinkled hands start to lose the booming freshness, but that night...that weekend...
I went back in time, I was same 11 year old, reckless, brat...uneducated and shameless...ahhaa...yes. I stood there in front of them looking from behind a child's eyes, I had billion questions to ask you...Yoshiki,
but...somehow I've lost my speech. Thank You for breaking the ice and say "HI" I replied "Hi" as well by default...in fact so many thoughts were unspoken that night...dangerous, malicious...outrageously full of love...of sadness...it is better they returned in heart, where they should ever stay...
Toshi,are those shades glued on your face ? You do have eyes...do you ? just for curiosity asking...I wanted so bad to give you a hell of a hug, but those at HMV yelled we shouldn't keep you distracted with hand shakes and stuff...
what they know those Brits about us? they have no idea who WE ARE! Sugizo and HEATH, you guys are great just always expected...PATA...
I couldn't just leave without telling him how happy I was with his last year performance at HIDEKI's anniversary in Kawasaki, and how grateful I was to heavens that his health allowed him to be there,even if he reached late and we feared for worse
...the only one I spoke with...PATA,so many fears were shade away when I saw in his eyes the sparkle of joy. It is such a weird feeling to see him...
them together again, and although HIDE...wasn't there physically speaking, I felt him so strong around me all the way, as if...he...never left us.
I got signed 2 album covers for my friend Monica and I and I've meet such lovely people there and all over Wembley area in the coming days. There, was a very nice someone who remind me again the power of X...his name is Ian, a simple man as many other X fans in the world. He came at Wembley with the wind blowing in his pockets, he had no place to sleep so...
he walked around SSE arena all nights since 3rd till the morning of March 5th...all he wanted was to see X live, he preferred to have nothing left for himself but give everything for X,
he shared with me his biscuits and kindness, and gave away his unconditioned friendship...even to those who do not deserve that.Nearly a week later and I am still thinking about him, about his kindness...
about how much he respected X Japan, he always talk so nice about our boys. Thank You Ian!...then there were the cosplayers from the party...we had such a great end of the night in a little pub named Wembley Tavern.
The owners allow us to play X songs and full around as much as we wanted...we kept singing as if there was no tomorrow, and for a moment, no matter from which background each of us came, no matter how less we knew each other in private...
we were there for X, we shared memories, remembering glorious times of Glamorous Rock...we continued the party in the street shouting out loud well known old X songs...we crushed down in one of our friends room, and we blasted out the night
until from my fault we were kicked out toward our rooms, in my case my hotel by the receptionist who did not understood the notion of "hell of a party". I walked away from Novotel toward The Green Man, the place where I checked in and I was singing...happy...
I still had a bottle of red wine in my bag, so I've open it...from Novotel till SSE Arena is 5-10 minutes walking the most...I really put up with the bottle and because I am a lousy drinker I "swept" away half of bottle...damn...
I was in such a good mode I couldn't stop laughing and singing. While I reached in front of SSE I was screaming HIDEKI'S HI-HO from all my lungs...it was nearly 2 am...no one in the street...
my leg went in wrong direction and I slept all the way till down on the steps leading toward SSE . I was still singing and laughing, I had a WTF drunk moment,I literally thought HIDE was beside me and he was scolding me off, for getting piss drunk...
he had a damn bike and went up and down, keep returning to me. He was happy...I could say even excited. Someone from above, on the Hilton roof saw my lame drunk scene and I heard them laughing.
I do not know how I reached back in the top of the stairs, in fact I don't know how I reached back to the hotel. There must be a God of drunk people cause no car crushed me. I had a great sleep till morning and I dreamed that I was connecting wires for HIDE's guitar with the amplifier and other stuff
which I have no idea about. In the dream he was damn excited arranging things and making list with what is played when and stuff...when I wake up I was so happy that nothing could bring me down. I did my make-up and in last minute instead of cosplay I decided to wear the "Danger" t-shirt...
HIDE wear it in my dream, so I felt closer to him if I wore that :)...the concert which was about to come it totally blow my mind...but I feel like I need to talk about that in much more detail on a separate post.
Thank you for reading the posts of HIDE's blog and I will keep my promise to you and bring you further information about HIDE and X Japan. HIDE is not a hero, he is family...ours, and love for him will never fade.
